waiting for death to kiss me goodnight.

that's what i felt late last night. i really can't explain what i was feeling then. my heart's really pumping hard, kabado. uneasy feeling, di mapalagay. that time, i really want to die rather i was waiting for death. akala ko mamatay na 'ko. sobrang iba talaga yung naramdaman ko. i knew something bad was bound to happen. and something did. hay..

i really feel betrayed now. i don't know how to trust. bigla akong nawalan ng gana. my hopes are crushed. sobrang iba. i'm feeling so weak. really weak. tell me how could i recover from this.....